I think I am weird. I am the only jobless person who's loving it.
Since I and the kids moved here in Singapore to join hubby, I am pressured to go back to work. Three years ago I already had fulfilled my dream of becoming a stay at home mom and the thought of going back to an 8-5 job makes me a little excited but sad.
Excited because I would be earning my own income again. Since I stopped baking, I haven't had a source of income except from hubby's pocket hehehe. Wattalife! Sad because it would mean having to leave the kids again and just see them a few hours a day and weekends.
I have sent several applications online but doesn't get any single response except auto-generated replies. I must admit, I am happy with that. Sounds downright wrong! I should be worried.
For now I have stopped sending applications. I am very pessimistic it is getting me nowhere. Somebody, please slap me in the face so I could wake up from this dreaming. Some are just unemployed because they choose it.
It's amazing that my first blog had just turned four years and two months already. I just realized it when I imported the contents of my old/secret blog to this new site. May 2005 when I started my first blog entry.
I guess it was my former supervisor who got me into this. Blogging was something very new to me at that time and upon seeing the blog of my office mate, I got hooked, though on and off. You see, I'm the type of person who loves to scribble anything which is why I love notebooks (ask my hubby). My usual problem with notepads though is the tendency to have my scribblings all mixed up, from list of bills to be paid, grocery list, to do's, and just about anything, including my kids' doodles. Online blogging proved to be a good solution also to store my notes infinitely. If blogging could have existed during the 80's then I wouldn't have lost that diary that has become my mom's favorite reading magazine everytime she uses the loo.
Now, I find myself blogging again with intentions of doing it seriously. Ahem, I thought so too in the past. Let's see what happens.
As I was about to let Joshua have his meds this early night, I noticed that the medicines I bought were not in my bunch of grocery plastic bags. I was sure I did not forget to take it from the pharmacy and I could clearly remember putting the plastic in the shopping cart. My hunches tell me I left it at the taxi and it could have gone under the front passenger seat that I did not notice it when I alighted and removed the bags from the cab. To make sure, I went back to Metro to ask the guy who assisted me. He was sure there was nothing left in the cart.
This isn't the first time I lost a grocery bag in a cab. The last time, sometime in January, I left a bag of meat in the trunk. It was a week's supply and I was hoping the driver found it before it contacted salmonella LOL!
I felt bad especially that budget is hanging on the edge. I allowed myself to feel bad for a few minutes and decided to let it go and just think that it happens for a reason, to serve a higher purpose. I just bought a new set of medicine. Joshua's dental surgery now costs a total of 10000 because of the double price I have to pay for the medicine hehehe!
To God be the glory!
The past weeks, MMDA sidewalk operation has been clearing up our area in C5. It was very commendable that they had cleaned up garbage and unwanted weeds and bushes from the hillside and had de-clogged canals, as well. However, it was very disheartening to find these same people burning the same garbage right there on the sidewalk emitting fumes that are clearly hazardous to our health and our environment as the garbage contains some plastic materials.
Section 20 of the Clean Air Act states:
Ban on Incineration. – Incineration, hereby defined as the burning of municipal, bio-medical and hazardous wastes, which process emits poisonous and toxic fumes, is hereby prohibited: Provided, however, That the prohibition shall not apply to traditional small-scale method of community/neighborhood sanitation "siga", traditional, agricultural, cultural, health, and food preparation and crematoria: Provided, further. That existing incinerators dealing wth bio-medical wastes shall be phased out within 3 (3) years after the effectivity of this Act: Provided, finally, That in the interim, such units shall be limited to the burning of pathological and infectious wastes, and subject to close monitoring by the Department.Is it still small scale sanitation? And even if it is, isn't it common sense that burning plastic material is hazardous? Don't you think Section 20 needs revision already?
Why are you here again? You know you are unwanted in my house and yet you keep coming back. There is really a time of the year when they are a plenty. I refuse to use pesticides to drive them away anymore.
Are you getting annoying comments in your Friendster and Facebook account with the words..
MY WEBCAM IS FINALLY WORKING, PLEASE CLICK HERE... with some picture of a girl lifting her blouse? Ang bastoooos!!!! That was my initial reaction until I found out just today that those comments are caused by a worm called KOOBFACE.
KOOBFACE is a virus/worm that is hitting social networking sites such as FRIENDSTER, FACEBOOK and MYSPACE. Good thing it hasn't penetrated MULTIPLY yet. None that I know of.
Anyway, if you are getting these comments in your other networking site or your friends complained that you are sending them these messages, here are some simple advice from a NON EXPERT like me. I got this from another site but I AM TOO LAZY to google it again.
> CHANGE EMAIL ADDRESS AND PASSWORD.. how to do it, naku find out for yourselves nalang.. more often than not, nasa SETTINGS or ACCOUNT info yon.
> RUN A VIRUS SCAN and/or ANTISPYWARE in your computer. I have AVG Free antivirus and ZONEALARM ANTISPYWARE which I bought online. THEY WORK WELL WITH ME in TANDEM.
note: Be careful with FREE ANTISPYWARE or freeware available online. More often than not they are MALWARE and SPYWARE themselves.
>> for friendship sake, TELL YOUR FRIEND who send you the malicious comment TO SCAN HER COMPUTER for viruses.
>> DO NOT BE TEMPTED TO CLICK ON THE "CLICK HERE" portion of the comment or your bound to be domed too.
>> and as always, be cautious when visiting unsecured sites
MGA PESTENG VIRUS ay puksain!!! REFORMAT!!! hehehe!
Amidst global recession, thousands losing their jobs everyday, companies closing, shortened workours, without hesitation and second thoughts, we are soon packing our things and moving to Singapore as planned. These depression is not only affecting the Philippines or Singapore but every nation. Recession is not something that we have control of. If we get hit by recession, whether we are here or in Singapore, it will just be the same, so why worry about recession at all.
Let's just have Plan B and Plan C.
Have I become a better person through the years? What have I accomplished so far from what I envisioned myself to be? What do I wish to do, what do I wish to become?
I am a person with no clear directions in life. Despite having been blessed with intellectual intelligence and swept primary, high school and college with consistent honors, I haven’t really attained much in life. The only trophies I am so proud of are my two sons and my family. They’re what I cannot trade with anything else, yet, I am still no good with parenthood. More so, I haven’t been successful in becoming an ideal wife material. I admit, these are my utmost goals and they are by far the most difficult to achieve.
I have simple dreams now. First, I want to be remembered as a loving mother to my kids. I want them to look back at their growing years and see me as someone who they can talk to freely, who they can count on through good and bad and who raise them in a home full of love. I want them to grow in a home where love and warmth is felt all day long. As a wife, I want to be one who is understanding and sensitive to the needs of my husband. One who speaks only of love and nurture that love until old age and til death do us part.
What is happening now is not leading to what I envisioned to be. My actions are not in conformity with my personal goals. I had alienated Joshua from me. Now he hardly listens to me, he hardly talks to me the way we used to. I haven’t been listening to him sincerely. I have spent more time with other less important things instead of sparing a time with him and Joseph for play. As a wife, I have been overly nagging at my husband. I haven’t been giving him warm attention and have been harsh to him in words.
Today, I am realigning these values, therefore I will not promise to amend myself, instead I will reaffirm that…
To my kids, I am a loving and kind mother. I am only using kind words whenever I speak to them.
I am disciplining them in a way they will understand.
I am not using threats to get what I want done.
I am spending more time with them and set aside chores that can wait.
I am nurturing their minds and values through proper teaching and example.
I love them unconditionally whether they behave or not.
I feed them nutritious foods.
I am not using harsh words whenever I get mad at them.
To my husband,
I am a loving and understanding wife
I am soft spoken and not asserting that I am always right at all times
I am selfless and giving to his needs
I am holding our marriage with the highest esteem, protecting it from all threats that may arise through a more open and non-threatening communication
I am only using kind words when speaking to him.
As a daughter and sister, I am thoughtful and more expressive of my love for my parents and sister.
As a child of God, I am not arrogant when dealing with other people.
I am using only kind words when communicating to any person, whatever their status in life is.
I am obedient to the laws of nature and the laws of heaven.
I am attuned with nature.
I take care of myself as this body is the temple of God and is being lent as gift that I should take care of.
I am not wishing any person ill.
I am not attaching myself to material things.
I am generous in sharing blessings to the needy.
Lawmakers are debating. College students are complaining. Parents are protesting. Is it really a solution to improve the quality of education in the Philippines? I hope CHED will use their common sense as for me answer is NO!
This is just a waste of time and resources. If they want to improve the quality of education here, here's a one difficult but surely more effective alternative though:
STOP CORRUPTION and instead get those billions out of the corrupt officials' bank accounts and add them to the budget for basic education which would include:
>> RETRAINING OF TEACHERS especially those handling basic education (primary to high school).
>> IMPROVING THE QUALITY OF LIFE OF TEACHERS by raising their SALARY. This will attract more qualified teachers. Good teachers are a few to find as most of them had shifted to more rewarding careers or had gone abroad for better pay. I am one of them.
The list could go on and adding additional year to college wouldn't be necessary anymore if the problem that lies in the lower level of education is addressed. The best quality of education should be given to children and not adult.
I once taught a group of college students in STI and was disgusted to find out several students who do not even know how to spell simple words correctly nor read properly. Disgusting, isn't it? Those kids were suppose to become computer engineers. Will adding one more year in college help them? No, right?
Again, the list of factors affecting the poor quality of education could go on. This couldn't be addresssed by sacrificing the already worn budget of parents.
When I was in high school, a copy of this poem once hung in our living room. I used to memorize them word for word but never understood its meaning. Just moments ago I was listening to RJ radio on my phone and they had it as their parting song and somehow realized how beautiful it is. I am posting this so I will always be reminded of the things that I should desire.
Desiderata means “desired things” in Latin.
My little boy is still two years, two months and two days old to be exact. At his age, he hardly speaks. His vocabulary is building up fast but he isn't talking straight yet. However, his technical skills is amazing. At his age, he can operate basic computer applications by himself already.
He turns on the computer if he finds it off, proceeds to login using the Open User I created for other family members. Depending on what he would like to do, he would click on the Start menu and click on Mozilla if he wants to watch his YouTube videos. Since I hardly clear the browser's cache, he finds his way to what he wants by clicking on the address bar which automatically highlights the URL, press backspace and types "Y". YouTube is usually the first entry which he then clicks on. He then spends several minutes watching his favorite animated videos, mostly, alphabet and counting videos.
If he gets bored with it, he goes to the Start menu again and search for the Folder in My Computer which contains his favorite pictures: Elmo, Barney, the Sesame Street, stars, butterflies. He doesn't know how to double click yet so I taught him to click on a picture and press enter to view it in a larger frame. He also knows how to drag and drop objects particularly to the Media player when he watches his favorite stored videos.
He also knows how to navigate to the Audibles section in YM's. So don't ever wonder if and when you try to send me a message and you get countless audibles. That's not me. (My YM is auto log in).
Sigh, my little boy is growing up fast technologically. I'm afraid that by five he'd be browsing porn sites, LOL! I am actually minimizing his computer exposure now. Not that I don't want him to learn fast. I am just lessening his exposure to radiation. Kids should be more active physically. Sigh again! Not very possible in my place.
I finally decided to go back to my dermatologist today for a very, very long overdue follow up check for my contact dermatitis. I dropped by the Vital Signs section of the clinic for a quick blood pressure check. I was surprised to find out my BP is at high, 150/90. I told the nurse I'll take a rest and come back in a few minutes. I was surprise not because it's something new. I had been hypertensive already. I was surprised because I felt no symptoms at all. Most of the times that my BP soars high, I would feel some discomfort already. That's when I take my medicine. I don't really follow the doctor's advise to make Norvask a maintenance medicine. I am afraid of complications.
Today, the truth that hypertension is really a traitor disease was clear to me. It can occur without any symptoms at all. I tried not to panic as I don't want to worsen it. I proceeded to my derma's appointment and was prescribed Prednisone for a week. As I was about to leave the clinic, I realized I haven't asked her if it's okay to take steroids when blood pressure is high. Good thing she was still there and was told to cross out Pred from the prescription.
Sigh, I could have die because of that should I haven't had my BP checked earlier. Ouch!
Noon ang mga metro ng kuryente ay ikinakabit sa labas mismo ng mga bahay.... pero, dahil sa dami ng mga magnanakaw ng kuryente, inilipat eto ng meralco sa labas ng kalye na magkasama sama.
Ngayon.... dahil sa madami pa din ang magnanakaw nililipat na eto ng Meralco sa taas ng poste. Sa tingin nyo nababawasan ang mga magnanakaw ng kuryente sa ginawa nilang to?
Ngayon ang mga magri-reading ng metro ay naka teleskopyo na!
(Saan na naman kaya nila ililipat to sa susunod no?)
After confirming the date of their final exams from Integrated Montessori I was finally able to schedule Joshua's dental surgery. March 16 was the first date I booked but after realizing that a follow up date would fall on a group meet-up I have to attend, rescheduled it to March 18.
Joshua's front incisor is impacted and is growing horizontally. It has to be removed before other dental procedures can be done.
Dr. Joseph Macasiray would be doing the surgery as was highly recommended by Dr. Tan, Joshua's orthodontics. I have yet to visit their office anytime this week but I've already read good reviews about him in Girltalk, a female online community I frequent to whenever I need local information. The cost of the surgery is P8,000.00. I asked if they can do the surgery with the patient sedated as Josh is a bit afraid of the discomfort it will give. Yes, one can opt to be sedated but has to undergo several medical evaluation. I almost dropped the phone when the secretary told me the tests would amount to approximately P50,000. OMG, never mind, I said. Josh can take it especially when he will find out about the price. It will be easy to bribe him. A piece of PSP cd (pirated, oooopss, bad!) would be enough. Cheap kid.
I just pray that it will be as painless as possible and with minimal discomfort and I pray this would be the last dental surgery he has to undergo.
Traffic was a bit heavy near our place on the evening of January 17. This was really unusual as C5 is a big highway and there is rarely traffic near our place unless there is an accident on the road. So I presumed there was a collision again. Upon reaching the overpass just right across our guardhouse, there were shattered glasses right under the overpass. A neighbor said there was an accident. A man was badly hit by a taxi so strong an impact that the front panel was shattered into pieces.
I wouldn't want to know whether he came out alive in that INCIDENT. I searched for the word accident and here is what I got from wikipedia:
An accident is a disaster which is specific, identifiable, unexpected, unusual and unintended external event which occurs in a particular time and place, without apparent or deliberate cause but with marked effects. It implies a generally negative probabilistic outcome which may have been avoided or prevented had circumstances leading up to the accident been recognized, and acted upon, prior to its occurrence.
Experts in the field of injury prevention avoid use of the term 'accident' to describe events that cause injury in an attempt to highlight the predictable and preventable nature of most injuries. Such incidents are viewed from the perspective of epidemiology - predictable and preventable.
I want to make sure I will not forget the name of the medicine that Joseph is allergic to. Xylocaine is a local anesthesia commonly used in dental procedures. Joseph had allergic reaction to it when he underwent a minor surgery when a cut in his chin had to be stitched.
I've been sleeping really late the past days. The earliest time my eyes shut off would be tonight hopefully as I have promised myself that I'd change my sleeping pattern. It's 1AM and I said I'd just write one entry to my blog. I hope to finish this in less than 20 minutes so that by half past one I'd be snoozing which I doubt.
Since I started working in a call center in 2004 I had always been on a graveyard shift. It has been that way for two years then I resigned to be a full time mom. I was preggy with Joseph that time. Despite the pregnancy, I would stay up as late as 1 or 2AM either finishing a cross-stitch or watching some television series. My biological clock has been altered by my two-year stint in PeopleSupport or perhaps, I have developed late night sleeping as a habit already.
I love working late nights because there are no distractions. Last night I somehow felt the toll of late night sleeping on my body. My back was aching badly and my eyes felt like they will pop out of their socket already. I know I have to change ways, change my sleeping pattern. I know this isn't good for the overall health.
There is less project at the moment but my mind has been busier than ever. I have been thinking about tons and tons of things. This is the price of I have to pay for deciding to move to Singapore. Endlessly, I am trying to figure out the best thing to do with the things we will be leaving behind. Shall we sell the tv? Shall we bring it to the province? Joshua's dental problem, shall we have it fixed here or shall we have the mask made in Singapore? Which is more practical and economical. These are a few of the things that are bothering me.
Arg! I gotta stop thinking!
I started this blog first quarter of last year to supposedly document my baking adventures and misadventures. I prefer to post in Blogspot those that I don't want the whole world to know. Multiply is such a big world out there even if I really have the option to just show it to whoever I want to share it with. Most people don't really have the patience to check out the links I posted in my online store thus only a few visits this link.
Blogspot is my secret world. I have a secret world in here. I have a very personal blog that only a handful of people knew and they might not even remember the URL already. I put it up in 2005 while I was still working in a call center. I document in that blog serious stuff about life, happy notes about my family, inspirations, frustrations, dreams (scary dreams). I wish to bring it forward one of these days. Who knows I might die so suddenly. At least, my loved ones would have something to read about my inner self through that blog. That plain and simple.
Starved, starving, famished, extremely hungry. This is what I hate about sleeping this late. Our kitchen is in the unit across and I don’t have some stock of food in here. Between 12MN to 2AM, my tummy already shouts food and there is nothing to grab but a glass of water. Somehow this has been helpful in bringing down my weight just a little bit and when I’m starving signals that I need to sleep already. If I let this pass for a few minutes, I know the hunger would go away. It’s all in the mind, I’m trying to convince myself. I don’t want to sleep yet. It would just be the same, I still would not be able to sleep right away. So go ahead Kate, starved some more!
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